There is nothing wrong with hesitating, if even for a moment, when faced with something that scares you.  However all I know is there’s no greater pronouncement of “self” than when you say “F it, this is exactly who I am and what I was made for” and then go for it because you know that “I’ve got this”!   You’re my boys and everything you want is just on the other side of each challenge you accept and embark upon because in my mind and heart, I have no doubt that you truly have “got this ” and everything else that you target on your horizon you want to conquer!